Blog to Outlet

I have such a hard time with this blog. I feel and think so much! I know what I want to say inside and yet I struggle with finding the right words. Not only that, I worry about how it effects other people. I try to not affend people so much I kind of lose myself and what I really want to say. A blog is used in so many different ways for people and I have decided that I am using this blog as my outlet (honestly writing in a journal is way too much effort when I can type so much faster). I have forgotten that this blog is not for others it is for me. I NEED an outlet with all the emotions, thoughts, feelings, etc. that go through my mind everyday.

With this said, I am going to make sure that before I put words down I am going to pray. Pray that whatever I have to say or feel that day that God will speak through me. Therefore, my words will always speak love, wisdom, kindness, and truth. Not just anger, frustration, hatred, and my own selfish thoughts. Some days I definitely want to scream to cyber space...I'm just saying! ;-)

I am ready to grow and let go of burdens and boulders that weigh me down because of my choice to hang on for immature and selfish reasons. I am ready to be a light for God and myself. So even though this is my outlet I never know how God will use me and this just might be one way. I changed 5 years ago because I allowed God to use me and completely put my trust in him. I have fallen down and I am ready to rise up again with his guidance. This journey will definitely be on a road that is rough, has a lot of pot holes, bumpy, with confusing directions, and I may drive off the set path sometimes but with God and my husband by my side and doing this together we will become a powerhouse. Hopefully this blog being my outlet will help me along the way. :-)

Getting the Best of Me/ "No More Chains"

"How did I get locked up inside?
What's this that renders me paralyzed?
I lost myself in small pieces
It happened over time

I traded love for a heavy chain
Another link every other day
I pulled it up and down a mountain
It made me want to say?

No more chains
No more chains
Big and small, watch them fall away
No more chains
Big and small, watch them fall away

I wonder now if the choice was mine
The door was open, I walked inside
Nobody had my arm twisted
Nobody made me stay

The face of freedom can show up small
A tiny crack in a prison wall
A song that rises up in silence
A voice that wants to say?

I should let you give me wings
I should let you set me free

No more chains
No more chains
Big and small, watch them fall away"

~ Nichole Nordeman

She sings exactly what I feel and what my heart is trying to say. I am ready to have these chains fall away.