What's Your #1 Greatest Fear...?

What is your #1 fear? Heights, Spiders, Public Speaking, death? 

I think we all have been asked this question some point in life.  Whether it's in a survey or in a classroom or like me just in the shower while random thoughts are running through my head.  I know weird right? Thinking of my greatest fear while I am getting a shower? Trust me I don't understand where my brain is either most of the time! :-) Anyways, I was thinking to myself that death/dying is usually the #1 greatest fear but for me it is not death, it is not public speaking (although that does run pretty close to second).  For me it is dying and never seeing the ones I love again.  I know that when I die I will go to heaven but will I ever see my family, my husband, my friends again? I know the world is nothing compared to Heaven and living eternally with God.  Is it fair to have a request when I get to heaven and that request being my husband, family, friends still the same? Or will it be completely different? I don't know and going to Heaven for me is definitely not sad but not having the ones I love is.  

I do know to give this to God and ask him to take complete control over this fear.  I do know having a relationship with him and trusting him with everything is in enough for me.  Fear can be overwhelming and seem bigger than myself and scary and sad but it is very small compared to my relationship with God. 

Brain Dump... Good Idea

I have read a few blogs where they have a brain dump for that week or that day.  I think that is a fantabulous idea and so I am now going to do the same.

- Pee in my pants excited to get my Blue Cross Blue Shield card with the CORRECT information on it.  WOW been a long time coming! 

- Need to become a better cook or wait… First, actually become a cook.  Love that my hubby cooks dinner almost every night but I guess since I’m a woman I feel I am not doing my duty and it’s driving me crazy.

- Have you seen the Jack in the Box commercial for smoothies? Hilarious!

-Really I mean REALLY wish I had a brain that can visualize because if I did I am pretty sure our apartment would be or almost be completely decorated.  Also, pretty sure it would look amazing! 

- Cannot wait to go on my date with my hubby tomorrow night! Even though we see each other every night and we don’t have children yet I have learned that you have to have a date night! Keep the romance alive baby!

-Wish money fell off trees.

-Wish we could find a Wii Fit.  Would be really convenient.  Personal Trainer would be even better… maybe one day.

-Would like to start getting involved in a ministry of some sort.

-Miss my family and friends.

-I wish my home was alive so it would clean and wash clothes itself.  

-So excited to help my sister move in her new apartment in Raleigh in two weeks! Would be so nice if she was here but I am very excited for her.

-Have to write Thank You Cards! I know, sad.

-Too many shows to watch.  By the by, Fringe is awesome! Kind of freaky but awesome!

-Have a wanting to read my Bible more often…laziness always gets in the way.  

-I am addicted to laziness and chocolate.  They both need to disappear! Okay maybe not chocolate but DEFINITELY laziness! 

-Our marriage/relationship consist of three.  God, Michael and I.  Need to build a relationship with each other through God and build a relationship with each other with God every day.

-Little children are so cute.  Okay NO not yet! Realistic thoughts…children turn into adults…yep not ready!

Learn Through People

So hopefully I can paint a vivid picture for you.  I work in a 6 story building.  I am on the 6th floor and I sit at a very large desk that is out in the lobby.  Therefore when you get off the elevator and you turn your head left or right (depends on which elevator you get off) you will definitely see me.  I see and hear everyone and everything.  I love it because ever since I started working there I have met so many interesting and amazing people who pass by me every day.  I think I know more people than some who have been working at Compass Group for several years.  It’s really been very helpful for me.  Anyways, I love watching people.  No not in a stalker type manner.  In a I have learned and grown into who I am in someway just by watching people type manner…

 

There is this older gentleman who comes every Friday. I call him Refrigerator Guy (because I am not sure what his name is) and he cleans the refrigerators.  Every time he steps off the elevator our usual exchange is how are you? I always respond “I’m good, thank you!” He responds “I’m vertical.” To me a response like that can have so many meanings and is so interesting.  To me a response like that has wisdom behind it…

 

There is another older gentleman who works on printers.  He always comes by and brings the assistant to the CEO of the company Pralines or something tasty.  He offers me one as well and I listen every time when he ask if Gay (the assistant) is in the office even though I already know the answer to his question.  Through his actions I learn routine, predictability, warmth, comfort, happiness, and I smile every time he comes.  

 

There is a lady who is blind and Compass hired her despite her disability.  This may sound weird but I could watch her all day and learn so much just from watching her.  When I see her I do watch her and I see someone who could teach me so much about life.  

 

People are so interesting (this goes for me as well) but when I sit back and observe I learn so much.  It’s just amazing! 

Hello Blog World... Yes I am a Newby!

It seems that everyone around me (not everyone) but a lot of people have blogs.  So I decided to join those lots of people and try to become a blogger myself.  So I am here sitting in my apartment on my lazy butt while my husband is downtown working trying to figure this whole “design your blog thing” out.  Usually I am pretty good a figuring technology out but tonight my inner technology guru self is just not there.  Now I am sure I know how my mom feels.  Although, I still feel she ask questions for (it seems) the simplest things when it comes to technology!  Tonight I have learned a lesson… Be patient with my mother when she does not know how to do anything technological because everything is not simple and yelling at the computer will not help me with my blog decor!