Me...

I have been blessed with an amazing and large and loving family...

I have not yet had to face a death in my family...

How do I accept and understand that that day will come? Why does it have to? These people mean so much to me why do they one day have to leave? I know it has not happened yet but I know that day is coming and don't like it. Why can't things just stay the way they are?

For now these thoughts are pushed away and I am going to focus on changing me... Need to see my Grandparents, need to spend time with them. Need is going to change into Will starting today... Can't let them go without showing them how much I love and care for them as well.

~LEGACY~

"I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me

And I enjoy an accolade like the rest

You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery

Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best

At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much

I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights

We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'

But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides

The temporary trappings of this world

I want to leave a legacy

How will they remember me?

Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough To make a mark on things?

I want to leave an offering

A child of mercy and grace who blessed your name unapologetically

And leave that kind of legacy

I don't have to look too far or too long awhile

To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy

It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile

Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy

I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace whoblessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy

Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred

Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one... "

I read a blog earlier today and it was basically talking about when you walk out your door what does the world see? What does everyone around you in your everyday life see? What example do you lay before everyone? What kind of display are you to everyone else?

It's so easy to ask others these questions but sooo not to ask myself! I ask myself if I was displayed on a wall or a shelf or in a pretty antique cabinet how would you view me? Hmmm tough question that I definitely do not have the answer to. However, I do know how I would like for you to view me. I would like to leave Legacy inside everyone that is a part of my life (of course) but more importantly for myself and God. I would like to display myself as a Godly, loyal, humble, compassionate, kind, loving, selfless, forgiving, accepting woman who walks out that front door and shines of these qualities everyday. I also know that starts with me and the decisions I make everyday.

When I read that blog today it made me remember the song above and how important it is to me to leave a Legacy, this kind of Legacy.

Would you like to leave a Legacy? If so what kind of Legacy do you want to leave?

Confessions of an Official Book Worm

Okay so how should I say this...um... I have a secret and I have decided that I am going to shall I say come out of the closet, come clean, drop the bomb, let it go, CoNfEsS! Okay all my fellow bloggers are you ready...

I am completely and totally absolutely head over hills in love with READING! Yep I said it reading... I know I know shocker!

Okay maybe not a shocker but for me it is because nearly three months ago I despised reading. I discovered my new found love at work. You see my position where I work is a receptionist and I am stuck sitting at a desk and cannot move for almost eight straight hours. Except for two 15 minute breaks and an one hour lunch break. There are definitely times where it can get pretty boring! I learned that the receptionist before me brought magazines and/or books to keep herself occupied when things were slow so I decided to do the same and WA-LAH book worm born!

Through these slow moments at work I have learned that I love Nicholas Sparks, thrillers, James Patterson, several Christian life learning books, and especially my favorite Memoirs! So if any of you bloggers out there share my interest and love reading please by all means share... I would love to hear about books that you think are awesome!

Thanks in advance!
Sincerely,
Your Fellow Book Worm

What's Your #1 Greatest Fear...?

What is your #1 fear? Heights, Spiders, Public Speaking, death? 

I think we all have been asked this question some point in life.  Whether it's in a survey or in a classroom or like me just in the shower while random thoughts are running through my head.  I know weird right? Thinking of my greatest fear while I am getting a shower? Trust me I don't understand where my brain is either most of the time! :-) Anyways, I was thinking to myself that death/dying is usually the #1 greatest fear but for me it is not death, it is not public speaking (although that does run pretty close to second).  For me it is dying and never seeing the ones I love again.  I know that when I die I will go to heaven but will I ever see my family, my husband, my friends again? I know the world is nothing compared to Heaven and living eternally with God.  Is it fair to have a request when I get to heaven and that request being my husband, family, friends still the same? Or will it be completely different? I don't know and going to Heaven for me is definitely not sad but not having the ones I love is.  

I do know to give this to God and ask him to take complete control over this fear.  I do know having a relationship with him and trusting him with everything is in enough for me.  Fear can be overwhelming and seem bigger than myself and scary and sad but it is very small compared to my relationship with God. 

Brain Dump... Good Idea

I have read a few blogs where they have a brain dump for that week or that day.  I think that is a fantabulous idea and so I am now going to do the same.

- Pee in my pants excited to get my Blue Cross Blue Shield card with the CORRECT information on it.  WOW been a long time coming! 

- Need to become a better cook or wait… First, actually become a cook.  Love that my hubby cooks dinner almost every night but I guess since I’m a woman I feel I am not doing my duty and it’s driving me crazy.

- Have you seen the Jack in the Box commercial for smoothies? Hilarious!

-Really I mean REALLY wish I had a brain that can visualize because if I did I am pretty sure our apartment would be or almost be completely decorated.  Also, pretty sure it would look amazing! 

- Cannot wait to go on my date with my hubby tomorrow night! Even though we see each other every night and we don’t have children yet I have learned that you have to have a date night! Keep the romance alive baby!

-Wish money fell off trees.

-Wish we could find a Wii Fit.  Would be really convenient.  Personal Trainer would be even better… maybe one day.

-Would like to start getting involved in a ministry of some sort.

-Miss my family and friends.

-I wish my home was alive so it would clean and wash clothes itself.  

-So excited to help my sister move in her new apartment in Raleigh in two weeks! Would be so nice if she was here but I am very excited for her.

-Have to write Thank You Cards! I know, sad.

-Too many shows to watch.  By the by, Fringe is awesome! Kind of freaky but awesome!

-Have a wanting to read my Bible more often…laziness always gets in the way.  

-I am addicted to laziness and chocolate.  They both need to disappear! Okay maybe not chocolate but DEFINITELY laziness! 

-Our marriage/relationship consist of three.  God, Michael and I.  Need to build a relationship with each other through God and build a relationship with each other with God every day.

-Little children are so cute.  Okay NO not yet! Realistic thoughts…children turn into adults…yep not ready!

Learn Through People

So hopefully I can paint a vivid picture for you.  I work in a 6 story building.  I am on the 6th floor and I sit at a very large desk that is out in the lobby.  Therefore when you get off the elevator and you turn your head left or right (depends on which elevator you get off) you will definitely see me.  I see and hear everyone and everything.  I love it because ever since I started working there I have met so many interesting and amazing people who pass by me every day.  I think I know more people than some who have been working at Compass Group for several years.  It’s really been very helpful for me.  Anyways, I love watching people.  No not in a stalker type manner.  In a I have learned and grown into who I am in someway just by watching people type manner…

 

There is this older gentleman who comes every Friday. I call him Refrigerator Guy (because I am not sure what his name is) and he cleans the refrigerators.  Every time he steps off the elevator our usual exchange is how are you? I always respond “I’m good, thank you!” He responds “I’m vertical.” To me a response like that can have so many meanings and is so interesting.  To me a response like that has wisdom behind it…

 

There is another older gentleman who works on printers.  He always comes by and brings the assistant to the CEO of the company Pralines or something tasty.  He offers me one as well and I listen every time when he ask if Gay (the assistant) is in the office even though I already know the answer to his question.  Through his actions I learn routine, predictability, warmth, comfort, happiness, and I smile every time he comes.  

 

There is a lady who is blind and Compass hired her despite her disability.  This may sound weird but I could watch her all day and learn so much just from watching her.  When I see her I do watch her and I see someone who could teach me so much about life.  

 

People are so interesting (this goes for me as well) but when I sit back and observe I learn so much.  It’s just amazing! 

Hello Blog World... Yes I am a Newby!

It seems that everyone around me (not everyone) but a lot of people have blogs.  So I decided to join those lots of people and try to become a blogger myself.  So I am here sitting in my apartment on my lazy butt while my husband is downtown working trying to figure this whole “design your blog thing” out.  Usually I am pretty good a figuring technology out but tonight my inner technology guru self is just not there.  Now I am sure I know how my mom feels.  Although, I still feel she ask questions for (it seems) the simplest things when it comes to technology!  Tonight I have learned a lesson… Be patient with my mother when she does not know how to do anything technological because everything is not simple and yelling at the computer will not help me with my blog decor!